The people I admire most in my personal world are those who are truly and graciously giving of themselves.
I wish I had that kind of big heart, but I must admit I don’t.
Yes, I can be kind and thoughtful, but there is a limit. I am protective of myself, my time and my resources. If I choose to give of myself, I guaranty that it is open hearted and with no expectation of recompense. But if I choose to give of myself, I can also pretty much guaranty that the choice has been well thought out.
I will protect myself and my own first. I don’t believe this is a bad thing, I just recognize that those who are always giving are special in a way I am not.
My sister Linda would be at the top of my selfless/generous list.
I don’t mean she is perfect (not by a long shot, the stories I could (and might) tell) but she is truly good hearted, and I admire that so much.
So, I guess I do have a heart of gold – it’s just not mine, it’s my sister’s.