It is certainly up to the individual, but I get so (emotionally) tired of seeing photos of fat people trying to look thin. It makes me sad. I am sad that you don’t love your round fat face the way I love seeing it. I am sad that you only feel beautiful when trying to…
When I was a wee one (yes, I was actually wee – once – a very long time ago), my folks would bundle me in a snow suit and we’d go ice skating. My first skates were double bladed and I loved skating. Nobody told me that I would one day have to forsake my…
That is, indeed, the question. Right now, I am up to my tits in rehearsals for A New Brain. (This show is so wonderful and the music is so fucking difficult – for the singers – not for the audience – y’all get to just sit back and enjoy!) This weekend there is an audition…
I slept about 10 hours last night. Slept. I did not lie in bed wondering when I would fall asleep. Pretty much right after my head hit the pillow, I was off to dreamland. I did not wake up a bunch of times from hip or back pain, having to change positions. I slept. I…
I just read a very good post by My Fat Friend. Fat shaming She talks about being at a party and talking to someone who, at first, seems interested in the topic of fat shaming and fat injustice. Then the person says the solution is to “just lose weight”. Wow. In the moment, My Fat…
And oh, how I miss it. What I seem to be losing is agility in thinking. And the ability to multi-task in my thinking. This is most obvious in trying to absorb new music. Holy fuck. Dealing with notes, words and rhythms. My brain just gets increasingly numb. And I get more and more frustrated…
Had a total brain fart this past weekend. A friend was having a Halloween party! Yay! Well, yay, except my social anxiety raised its ugly head. I hate to say it, but I seem to be losing the battle against this particular problem. I promised myself at the beginning of the year, I would make…
I was in the middle of a performance of Cabaret (playing Fraulein Schneider), when I suddenly realized something … The man playing Herr Schultz had on (old) age makeup. I did not have on age makeup. No one asked me to wear age makeup. Clearly, I no longer need age makeup. OMFG. When did…
I used to read self-help books. I’ve read some very useful ones too. I particularly like Shakti Gawain’s Living in the Light, where I learned that reality is what you make of it; or it’s all about your own perspective. And there’s another one, that I can’t remember the title or author, but what I…
My first job-job was at a fat lady clothing store called Nancy’s Place. I say, my first “job-job” because before that I had made some TV commercials for Nancy’s Place, but I was paid in clothing, not $$$. Which was fine with me, because I wanted clothes more than I wanted $$$. When Nancy’s Place…
Thoughts from a Fat Old Lady 