That is, indeed, the question.

Right now, I am up to my tits in rehearsals for A New Brain.

(This show is so wonderful and the music is so fucking difficult – for the singers – not for the audience – y’all get to just sit back and enjoy!)

This weekend there is an audition that I have been planning on going to.

SVCT is auditioning for Cabaret.

At my age, I no longer want to go from one show right into another.

On the other hand, at my age, there are only so many roles that I am right for.

So opportunities are dwindling.

And my ability to do shows is dwindling.

I know that by the time Cabaret starts rehearsals, my fat old lady ass will be dragging.

But I love the show and the role I’m considering auditioning for (Fraulein Schneider).

But I’ve already done this show and role.

So why take the chance of ruining the memory of a wonderful production?

It is with a group that I have never worked with before.

And any show is just a shit ton of work.

But I already know the music and the lines.

But any show is just a shit ton of work – and worry.

I’ll probably have rehearsal on the audition days and call back day.

The good news is auditions are not scheduled – so I can leave it to the last minute.

The bad news is auditions are not scheduled – so I will probably waste a lot of time sitting around.

Fuck.

I hate being a grown up and having to make decisions.